Can we talk about work for a minute? It can be a loaded subject for moms. I’m pretty sure most of us have felt judgement, inadequate, or nervous about our “work” choices at some point or another. We shouldn’t, but we do.
I came to motherhood a little later in life, so was focused on my career path before having kids. Even after kids, I wasn’t ready to give up that career, so I juggled both until the demands of each were too much. My official title the last three years has been “stay at home mom”. Like most jobs, I’ve enjoyed it, but after doing it for a while, I am ready for something different. The kids don’t quite need me as much as they used to. I need a little bit more than I used to. I like to stay busy. Not in a bad way, but I like the structure of a schedule and feeling productive.
So, I accepted a part time job in my old field. Hi ho, hi ho, it’s back to work I go! Originally I thought I would go back to work when my youngest went to kindergarten, but a great opportunity presented itself, so I dove in nervous, excited, scared… So many emotions and questions running through my mind.
• Will I be able to do it all successfully?
• Will my kids feel equally loved as they do now?
• How will I get everything done?
My first day ended up being a 2-day board meeting. Welcome back work! It was actually a great meeting and it would have taken me 6 months to learn all that I learned in those 2 days, but it brought lots of mom guilt and emotions. The hubs had to shuffle his work schedule to get all the kids to school and extracurricular activities. Each time I called there was a lot of “mom, when are you coming home” type questions. But, I know these can also be good things. It is good for them to be without me a little bit, for my husband to pitch in a little more and it’s good for me to use my brain in new and different ways.
How will it turn out? Your guess is as good as mine. So far so good. We will be eating take out a little more and the toilets may be a little less clean, but I think we are all going to be OK, and that’s good.